Cry Me a River (Bury Me)

FINALS ARE OVER......never been so happy since last time Finals were over. It seems like every year Finals get more and more stressful, and every year it seems to be easier for more people then me. (Seflish alert!....not. I'm not that selfish...at all) This year I had to ...
1) be a counseler for about 5 people. O_O
2) had more then 10 commissions in one week
3) had to study like a madman for classes which I was failing
4) had to pack for the move
5) personal family issues.

Through it all...I barely survived. I had a hard time smiling in classes, let alone not speaking my mind. I did a few times, and it hurt some friends of mine (who will probably no longer speak to me again) Which in a way...is pitiful. My generation has a lot to learn, and it seems like me and very few other people understand it. First of all, no one listens anymore. I mean, whenever someone's talking to me I'm all ears. I'll nod and answer, but when I talk...it's like their OCD. Look...a squirrel! That's just rude, and it'll turn many people off, including myself. I'm surprised at myself for lasting this long. Another thing is actually taking a joke, and taking something which is serious...seriously. If I say a joke, you know it's a joke, but kids now on days...don't. They take it seriously, and I have to soften the tears. But if it's dead serious...they think it's a joke, and laugh at your broken soul. Why do I even try?

Cry me a river is my newest song added to my late late late playlist. Plus it's for friend(s) of mine. Since school's out no one's gonna read this from my classes,...so anyone from a different country...or state.....or....island....?

I WAS SHOCKED OUT OF MY MIND...I never lost my temper ONCE all Finals week! :) Last year and the year before I did, and I got low grades because of it. I would blow up, and before you know it, be yelling at the pro. ready to throw punches, but this year I reamined mellow, and just bit my tongue. But you know what's funny? Even though I didn't lose it...I still think I hurt some people I shouldn't have. I say things straight from the heart, and some people don't like to take it simply as that. I mean, yes there were some crappy things which weren't.....wanted, but it was either for common sense, or normality. So...if that particular person is reading this, you know what I mean. (If you're reading this)

More digital art!  A friend of mine sent it to me....dunno who did it, actually...

It's big piece.

I submited a lot more art, and I've started my inter-national art contest piece. It might be even bigger then my fish! (My inked fish is almost as big as my wall....I submited it last year, and it didn't win anything. ): It was painful one too. Took me over 9 months of inking...sketching....inking, and platening. It's so detailed now and....odd, but one of my true masterpieces.

I'll submit it sometime,

Comment...advice...? Final Project Final

That post! Woot! :)

This is to all my peers....

What did you think of my boring presentation?

I know it was a drag to get through, but hey, it's over now....hopefully, so tell me what I did wrong, right, or what you liked most about it! 

I was going to insert a song or something...but nothign fit into the file amount. ): 

I got this entire thing done in just about a week....or procrastinating. The entire PowerPoint I got done the night before the presentation. heehee...

 I fell in love with this song... (completely off topic) 

 

Been working on Project: Black like crazy! First ch. should be done before summer! It'll be a short manga tho, if anything one book or two. That's it. Nothing I want to continue later on. I've been under a lot of stress with Finals, so I've bought a giant box of powdered donuts, and I sat down, listening to the song above, (or rap) ate donuts, and did my hmk. Life doesn't suck much more then this. 

lol lol lol - Final Project

Post 5! One more and I'm done! :)

I'm in class again...working on nothing. haha.

Once again everything is at home. So I can't do anything. My synopsis is done, and at home. My PowerPoint is almost not done...also at home, under a file unkown to PC's.

Since I have nothing to do..I've been looking up more art. I didn't really know WHAT to look up, so I googled my uncle. He's what you would call a famous artist. He has art in just about every country I could name. His style is really distinct and unique. I haven't met or heard of anyone who has a style even close to how amazing his is. It's truly something special. If you want to see some works of his, (or where some of art has been click here or his actual site here. Or even here.) click the links.

I'm kinda at war with myslf here. I'm dyng to have some of Yuumei's art on my PowerPoint, but I can't decide on what! Oh, and I just found out her real name in Wenqing Yan...spelled right? I was gonna have Knite, but right now This is looking like the way to go...Fish Eye Placebo.
Here's the poster cover for Knite....I've read all that she has out so, and it's amazing, I'm dying to read more.

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Then there's Fish Eye Placebo...

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I can't decide which one....

I'll upload pics later. Class is about to end, and I have to WALK to my next class....

Saw Skyline yesterday...after King Kong. It's lame. I could have slept through it. The trailer's make it sound and look epic, but it's like a rip off of CloverField. And the ending sucks. It just ends....It was like District 9 and War of the Worlds in the mix. I could have lived my life without seeing it.

Yay! I finished another post! One more and I'm done!

Going Ape/Sasuke -Final Project

Yes, I am watching King Kong right now, 2005 one, as I work on my powerpoint for the hundreth time. I keep putting it off because I really don't want to do it, but then I think...I have to, so I try again, and end up just staring at the screen like an idiot. So, that being said, I am on here...again. Seriously though, I've been monkeying around. X)

They did such a great job with this movie, it still blows me away every time I watch it.

I just saw Planet of the Apes right befoew King Kong. And before that, another Planet of the Apes, and before that another Planet of the Apes, and before that Princess Mononoke. I AM DYING TO SEE THE NEW PLANET OF THE APES!!!! :) :) :) A childhood favorite. I will never forget when I saw the first Planet of the Apes, (my mom brought it home when I was like 7) and I fell in love with it instantly. I'm not a monkey fan, but I thought the idea, the whole thing (even though it was just men in ape costumes) was perfect. If you haven't seen the trailer for the new Rise of the Planet of the Apes...watch it. 

I'm gonna watch all the originals, then the newest ones, then I'm going to the midnight premier of this one. It's like Lord of the Rings or Star Wars episode 3 all over again. Even maybe Avatar. It's too epic to pass up. 

As for back to the project....I am writing or....polishing my synopsis. I'm doing ok with it. My powerpoint is going to need some major work. So many images to choose from. 

Is this blog post 4 or 5? Owell, I guess I can guestimate. 

I told a friend of mine that I was asked to draw Sasuke again, and he got the idea of doing it himself. So he did a quick sketch, and sent it to me. I'm doing my own of course...but not digital like his. He's like me....LOVES semi-realism.
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The lips are a bit much. 

Boring Daylife

NOT a project post. Thank God.

Well, even though my time is off, I will tell you it is in the wee hours of the mornning. I just finished watching 4 movies back to back, and I can barely keep my eyes open. Just thought I'd say that. :)

My boring daylife? Well, today is the perfect day to display it. I woke up this mornning feeling negative, a sign of good health for me. (Or so I'm told) Classes were long, and intentionally boring beyond words. In my last 2 hours I just about lost it. A frickin' drunk monkey doing the tango.

I worked today, and it was rather interesting. The head boss asked me to do a "very important job" and lick envelopes. Yay... I got a paper cut on my tongue, and some creepy lady out of no where asked if she could "kiss it to make it better". I told her no thanks and then freaked out in back-room. Weird.

I came home with a splitting head-ache, and took a very long nap in the middle of my bedroom floor. I was too warped to get up. Next, I popped in a movie, and made choc. sodas for a few people. (Anyone who has never had a choc. soda....I'm sorry, but you haven't lived life out to it's fullest yet) When my older sis came home from somewhere. She said she was getting pink-eye. I took a look at it, and sure enough (I've had it enough times to know) she has it. Which is just great, cuz I have Finals this week, and if I get it, that means it's contagious, and I'm unable to go to my classes. Wrong time sis, wrong time.

I recieved a very strange message a day or two ago from someone...asking why I never really let my true identity out. Like what I look like, ect, ect. a) I love mystery. Half of you might know me and not even know it. (people in my classes...shut-up) I could tell you what I look like, but you might take a different image, and be looking for someone else. Like...I have dark blue eyes, and spiked black hair. Is it true? Who knows, but you might have a different image, right? Anyway...

New OC

Another manga with someone. It's gonna be small, and maybe innocent. The last girl didn't want to finish the project, so we both dropped it, even though I wanted to keep going. It was a great story, but...anyway.

That's all for now. Image? Ok...

Random Ideas. I liked the ties, and the sayings said on them. 

'Night everybody. 

Starting Up Again - Final Project

Day 3

I'm in class again...yay...that died.

So far, I have my synopsis done, and I'm about to begin the powerpoint. But I can't start it here. These computers have delayed technology. I mean, they are at least 3 years older then the first computer invented. So, that being said, the formats are old, and won't transfer to my a-maz-ing Mac at home. So, I have to finish and end everything at home. I have nothing to do right now. I was hoping my teacher wouldn't have us work on our projects in class today. But the one day he does...I can't. But I can't complain...much. At least the people who don't have time are capable to work on it now. Meanwhile, I sit.

On the up side, I have a few pics uploaded and a few other pics picked out. Haha, pics picked out. That was lame.

I have officially started my powerpoint...ugh

Another blog post down.

I Have Issues- Final Project

2nd entry out of 6. Here we go.

Yes, I am having issues. ~sigh~. I have yet to start my powerpoint, and I have yet to upload half of my works, and I have commisions piling up the ying yang. I need a day off of drawing. Oh, and I have PB to work on. (Project: Black) I officially started ch. 1. I did the prologue, and told the story, now it's work time.

I will NOT be using JUST my works. I repeat. NOT ALL my works. I will show some of Yuumei's artwork, and maybe some other sketches I find...randomly. I'll get permission first, of course.

I have am uploading images right now.

Gosh, this is boring. I can't wait till this presentation is over. I need TONS of images. I have my story laid out. I know how I'm goign to begin, and end. And the different levels are set. All I need to do is put it together. Not much different then yesterdays.

Should I use this one?

And, yes, I shrunk it. It's a pretty bad piece if you ask me, but it's a quick sketch, and it took like 5 min.

Consider another blog entry done.

Yay, More Hmk!....Final Project

I have more hmk. Surprise, surprise, right? I was saved today, when my teacher said that instead of a Final, we're having a presentation. And mine is going to be on Art. (......BIG surprise there) How it all began, and where my inspiration came from, ect. And the types of art, and how much of it. It's gonna be boring. I was originally gonna put this on myoccrap because it's art related, but...I promised that it wouldn't have hmk labeled on it. So...here we go.

This will contain 6 blog enteries. So, bear w/ me.

I am starting with the synopsis, and I'm gonna do a power-point. I'll include most of my original works, from the beginning, to the most recent. I'll explain the technics, ect...

Well, this is the first blog for the future 6.

K-pop & Names

I've been having some pretty suckish days recently...and it makes my negativity even worse. ):

I'm listening to K-pop right now. 2pm actually. I was listening to SHINee, then DBSK and TVXQ, oh, and 東方神起 - Rising Sun. Awesome

Project: Black is no longer a secret. I told my sis one night, (I couldn't sleep) and eventually I told my mom too. Then I told someone in one of my classes, so it is now out there. I'm still a bit worried someone might steal it, so it won't be posted on here till Finals are over.

I'll give you a hint "Cancer" plays a huge role in the story.

It'll be dedicated to D. I only wish he was still alive to see how great an inspiration he was, and how his death, though too soon and tragic, helped me find a better path, and inspired me to draw a novel he would've wanted to read, 3 years ago. Thanks, D


I found this pic, and I instantly saw it as my newest avatar...

Yes. Me in the mornning. Bunny slippers and all. I love Garfield, it was my favorite comic growing up, then Foxtrot came, and then all of the them. (: Comics always make me happy. I think they're the only things that can make me actually smile. (Other then my bro, and stupid pranks)

Newest portrait I have to draw....

Yes, it is small. And it's actually a person...who isn't famous. It's supposed to be side-ways...she took the pic that way. Then asked me to draw it. I hope it turns out.

OH!, and I smashed my thumb from the car door. Yea, it's all black and purple now, and the nail has to come out. By pulling it. Yea...it moves. I think it's the coolest thing ever, but it creeps even my mom out. :)

Blogger need emoticons!

Hmk- The Cloud

The Cloud. It is a basically anything that is virtual. Like OZ, Deviantart, Google, mixpod, ect. Anything that isn't physically kept on your computer. So, if something major happens, you'll never lose files that are kept in the Cloud. That make any sense at all? I hope not
Advantages---You'll never lose anything. It will be there forever, or until you delete it. Things can be stored, and you won't lose any memory on your computer...well, much that is. 
Disadvantages---People HIGHLY under-estimate the country hacker. (That's a saying, btw) I, having been a pretty high standard hacker a while back, know how easy it is. It's a lot simpler then you'd think. (I no longer hack much, cuz it's also easy to catch hackers, and I didn't want to do anything stupid..I now avoid hackers) So, your stuff isn't THAT safe...I just contradicted myself. You get my point. It's safe without hackers, but with hackers...it's not. 
This being said, you now know about the Cloud. (We had a lesson on it in my tech class) Pretty basic stuff for the average Joe. ________________
I had originally written this post in Chinese...I forgot to reset the language setting. !) So, after I hit edit, for some reason the print isn't showing up. So, if this is really choppy...do NOT blame me, blame Blogger. I have to do another movie review soon, so that might be posted in a few hours, or a few days, or whenever the universe lets me. (my life is so chaotic!)

Rant on Awesome Weekend

OK, my weekend was good, in a few words of saying it.
Friday I had Phy-Ed (small gym this year, last year's was bigger then the science building) testing, and I pretty much failed. I sucked at everything, and so if anything I got Nationals. Ick. But I was sore, because it was harder work then I thought, and so my gut felt like someone stabbed me, and my legs were in major pain. Every cell my living body was screaming in agony as I walked through our front door.
But to top it off, I had a ton of hmk, and my sis had to ride her bike to work...and I had to come too. Mind you, I haven't ridden a bike in about a year or so. I just never had the time. So, when we rode...what 4 miles? 3 miles? to her work, my butt was added to my pain list. The ride was frightening. I've come to the realization that teenage girls have no brains at all. I was riding my bike, ok, and there are about 10 HS girls jogging in front of me. I have my ipod in, naturally, and I said excuse me, but they didn't move. I can hear my sis on her bike behind me and I have my music on full blast. So now I'm just a foot or two away from mauling them, and I say louder, "Excuse me!" FINALLY they hear me, and shriek in their annoying tones, running in every direction...including in front of me. I slam my hands on the breaks, and nearly run one or two over. They laugh, but I just kept going. I turn the corner, and there's a lady on her bike, leisurely going along...and I'm on the grass...so this lady can pass. When right as she's passing me, she swerves toward me. I instantly fall into the street just to get rid of collision, and she starts swearing at me. My rides are always this fun...

Sat--I woke up unable to move. I was as stiff as a 2-by-4. Plus, to top it off...Sat is the only day of the week I can sleep in, and being home, my dad decides to wake me up at 6 AM. Telling me I had to work outside today. I just agreed and tried to go back to bed, but couldn't fall back asleep. So, I got up and worked on my parents new garage all day. Oh, and my sis and I rode our bikes to the library. I ended the day by taking a very long shower after rolling around in the dirt and worms all day. But when I striped off my shirt, I realized with horror....that my entire back was sun-burnned beyond belief. It's peeling now.

Sun--I treated my mom out to donuts, and we didn't do anything. My mom was gone most the day, so I sat down and watched the entire 3rd season of Avatar Last Airbender after digging it out of my room. I literally just hit play all, and watched it while doing my hmk. Then that night we watched Diary Of a Wimpy Kid. I liked Freddly and the little Indian kid. I swear Freddly's gonna be a stalker when he grows up.

I have now seen just about all of Miyazaki's movies. For those who haven't...here's a list of ones you MUST see...


Spirited Away

My Neighbor Totoro

Princess Mononoke

Howl's Moving Castle

Whisper of the Heart

There's The Cat Returns, Kiki's Delivery Service and a few more, but these above are his best films...and Spirited Away is by far his best. Speaking of directors...there's another one who's caught my eye.

Mamoru Hosoda...he two films so far have become instant favorites of mine. Which are.

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

Summer Wars

Kazuma's by far my favorite character in Summer Wars, my sis thinks it's cuz he's so much like me. (not!)

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It's Been Awhile ...

It was on that rainy day, when the train seemed to be taking forever getting to it's destination. And I was going to be late for work, again. My school uniform was soaked from the down pour, and my hair was matted to my face. My homework was wet, and my satchel was lying on the ground, making a puddle at my feet. People were talking on their cells, and others were taking naps as the loud train slowly made its way to Suncity.
Then for some reason, my reflection in the window began to form as buildings passed by. I almost didn't recognize it at first, it had been so long. Last time I saw myself, I was short, and had short bangs with big brown eyes over the band-aids on my cheeks. I was about 7. Or was it 8? Man, that was ages ago. I remember saying how much I never wanted to grow up, and saying how mean older kids were. And now I am one. Time passed by so fast I barely remember growing up. High School was a nightmare, and here I am...college, grown up, job and school. My life had gone from happy and long to short and fast. I gazed at my reflection, and stared through it. Somehow I never realized how much time had passed...I had no time to notice.
The train finally came to a stop, and I stepped off, helping an elderly woman. I thought about a lot as I walked to my next class. And by the time I got there, I pulled out my cell, and typed a number I hadn't used in a while. It rang for a moment, and the finally I heard a voice I hadn't heard in forever. I smiled briefly...it had been 6 years. A tear of joy slid down my cheek as I said almost as a whisper... "Hi, mom."

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Just a short story I thought up yesterday on the train. And...it was about to rain, so it entered my mind..hope you like it.

Hmk Podcast Reflection Essay

Our podcast is one of very few words. Random. Humor. Why? Our audience is bascially open to the public as a whole, but it can be narrowed down to teenager based. Most teens (especially Hig School students) are the most assistant listeners in this procces. Teens are more receptive and find (frankly) pretty retarded things funny. Even when it comes to hurtful things, being imature, content which is imature, is hilarious. Though some of the content in our podcast is,in fact, a little imature, but the message wasn't. We meant to have fun and to random speak our minds...as a fact, we had nothing on our minds when we recorded it. As much as I wanted our audience to be more college based, I don't think it would happen. College students love random, and funny, but their funny is a little more normal then that of a High School student.
     Would our audience be interested in our podcast? To be 100% honest with you, I don't think so. It's a general podcast, and I think HS students might become bored with it, and think it "lame". College students might not even have the time to listen let alone think it humorous. It is funny, for those who get/appreciate the drift, but I don't know many people who would understand it as a whole. It's very dynamic, we're constantly being inconsistent. Going off topic, and talking about other things, and then after so long we'd go back to the original topic. It was more like taking your files and hitting "Randomize" and watch everything scatter and join together again.
     As for our next episode, I'm not exactly sure. The first topic was Ducks, but our next one might be something even more random. I'd want to do something a little more versital. Something with more edge, and expantion space. I can come up with pretty clean things, quick and fast off my tongue, but when you limit the subject, it gets a little harder. I think we need to open our front door a little more.
     In doing this, I think we should express more jokes, and more personality towards out audience. Expressing more emotion and humor into our voices and our words, telling more stories then one. If anything that I've learned during thid podcast can be laid down in one solid statement: "It's harder then it looks" When I first saw it and recorded it, it went pretty smoothly, then the editing came into play, and we had to redo the thing a bunch of times, and the ultra pain came into play. It was fun, don't take me wrong, but it's something I don't think I'll do again in the near future. My mouth can run faster then my hand, yes, but my hand can simplify things smoother then my mouth, and a lot of people might not understand the reasoning I have behind my words. This statement being "stated" I think our podcast needs a little help, and lot of polishing.